Monday, June 23, 2014

Loving-Kindness Exercise/Integral Assessment


Hello,

The loving-kindness was an exercise about open the heart and mind to think of individuals who may be suffering to be able to find a way to health, happiness, and wholeness. This exercise was very much needed for me, because I struggle with this daily. My purpose in life is to quit worry about things, because I worry a lot and it is not good for my health. I feel like I have not reach my level of happiness and I do not feel complete; which at times I get real sad. My motive in life is to help individuals even, when I cannot help myself, but I know it have to start with me. I think about the saying daily, “You have to make your own self happy, before you make someone else happy”.  The integral assessment is developing yourself something like soul searching and finding ways to grow on what you know about yourself that need fix in your life that will fulfil it. I’m kind of at a crossroad in my life now, because I’m about to accomplish an achievement in my life graduating from college and I’m having a baby soon. Something inside of me still yearns for more, because I feel like I have so much potential and in my mind I feel like I have fail myself. I’m mature, but in a sense I still feel like a child in some situation where I have not grown up; like I’m currently a student that mostly at home and sometimes I feel like I should have been working on a stable job for a couple years now. I tried to be independent and sometimes when I have to depend on others it either stress me out or I get nervous, because the feeling of being let down makes me feel worthless. The area in my life I want growth and development is improving my health, because I think that if I reach that level happiness and everything else will come with it. The first thing I need to focus on is eating more healthier now and maybe start out walking being that I’m pregnant; then eventually start more cardio, weight lifting, and running.

6 comments:

  1. Hi Sonya,

    I really enjoyed reading your post and about your experience through completing these exercises. It provided me with a unique perspective on things because of how you stated your experience in your blog post. This, also, was a very much needed exercise for me, especially because I have been dealing with so much lately emotionally! There are times when it feels like the hits just keep on coming, and I think it is training, growth, and development through the integral approach that can truly help us through these trying times, and not just make it through, but come out of it a better, more highly developed individual!

    Great post, Sonya!

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  2. Hello Sonya,

    Your post was a great read. Often times I find it hard to express how I feel and finger point my downfalls. I think that you having the ability to do this speaks words. I know what you mean when you feel like you have failed yourself. It took me a long time to step back and realize my accomplishments. So I think that when you are feeling that way you should take a look at everything you have already accomplished, two huge things at that! Not everyone can complete college and some it takes years to reach the milestone. Having a child is a huge accomplishment as well! As for working on you I think that you have a great idea with that. You can always help other people but until you help yourself you wont feel fulfilled. I log my food daily on myfitnesspal but just switched to caloriecount.com these apps help me stay on track with my nutrition and my physical activity. They have a ton of suggestions for pregnant woman and exercise. Check it out!

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  3. Sonya, worrying can bring a lot of bad things to your health. I used to be a worrier, even for things that had not come yet and things that were beyond my control. I always thought “what if’ and this made me make bad decisions. After so many years of worrying, I started experiencing anxiety attacks and this is where I began my journey to overcome all mental problems. I have learned that worrying do not solve problems, it just gets you sick.

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  4. You and I share that worrying trait unfortunately. Worrying about the smallest thing can cause health issues. I personally struggle with stress headaches. But faith, along with these meditation practices are actually beginning to help ease the "worry-wart" in me.

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  5. Hi Sonya : )

    Your post was really enjoyable to read, and i feel as though I am able to relate with you on so many things about how you've been feeling and what you've struggled with. We both share a motive, and the one thing I have always wanted in my life was to be there to help and listen to others who feel as though they have no one that they can go to and open up to about real issues they are facing. I believe you will, through the experience of your own struggles, be able to help out many other people who feel the same. The important thing is to keep searching for solutions within yourself, change the things in your life that you are not happy with or learn to accept them in a way that enables you to remain a progressing individual. Congratulations on your pregnancy and on graduating soon! You should be so proud of yourself, you're doing it all! I truly can relate to your feelings of having to depend on others, feeling like you're not doing enough, but you know what? You are living your life the best you know how, and your capacities for "bestness" will increase and decrease daily, hourly, even by the minute. Never give up on knowing yourself, and always believe in your mind's ability to redefine itself and you because change may be challenging but it builds character. Cheers, and never look down. : )

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  6. You and I share that worrying trait unfortunately. Worrying about the smallest thing can cause health issues. I personally struggle with stress headaches. But faith, along with these meditation practices are actually beginning to help ease the "worry-wart" in me. meditation teaching

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